I wants!!!!

I quit.

Quitting YOU is so easy....


I've done it many times... :)

I will never say never...

On my way to the office this morning (i was late again, got here around 10:40 -- yes, I'm blogging at work), i was listening to the OST folder in my mp3 player and heard "Never Say Never" by The Fray. I suddenly remembered Chester See's cover of this song so I searched the net for a free download (sorry*). But it's quite hard to find, I ended up downloading JB's "Never Say Never" instead. 


ne-never say never... ne-never say never... 


No, I don't have Bieber Fever.! But I have to admit the song is good.. So never say you're never gonna listen to Justin Bieber.. I'm expecting LSS until tomorrow. :D


But I still prefer RUSTIN HIEBER (http://www.higatv.com/) over JB. 

tEEhEE!

I don't..

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights 

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say 

I don't need that MOON by my side
I don't need that MOON in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold MOON when MOON cries 

I don't want to say MOON's my kind
I don't want to say that MOON's mine
I don't want to tell MOON that
I love MOON more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love MOON more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah 

Honestly, this won't do
How is MOON doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool 

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say 


I don't need that MOON by my side
I don't need that MOON in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold MOON when MOON cries 

I don't want to say MOON's my kind
I don't want to say that MOON's mine
I don't want to tell MOON that
I love MOON more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love MOON more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah 

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say 

I don't need that MOON by my side
I don't need that MOON in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold MOON when MOON cries 

I don't want to say MOON's my kind
I don't want to say that MOON's mine
I don't want to tell MOON that
I love MOON more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love MOON more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah



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Replaced:
girl/her/she --> MOON


('cause he always says, we're under the same moon)


http://davidchoimusic.com/

Are you..?

Stop in the dark

Where the stars are still shining on me

Go with the wind

Let it lift away the memories

I tried to set you free

You keep trying to rescue me

But you can't tell a heart when to start, how to beat

I never wanted to say goodbye

You never wanted to see me cry

Now, I'm afraid to open my eyes

Are you gone, gone, gone?

Tell me I'm wrong, wrong, wrong

It's been so long, long, long

Are you gone, gone, gone?

Back at the start

We were the only thing that mattered

And we smiled, unafraid

As we filled the night with laughter

And I tried my best to see

What you tried your best to be

But you can't tell a heart when to start, how to beat

I never wanted to say goodbye

You never wanted to see me cry

Now, I'm afraid to open my eyes

Are you gone, gone, gone?

Tell me I'm wrong, wrong, wrong

It's been so long, long, long

Are you gone, gone, gone?

Oh, though it seems that we were not meant to be

I have to disagree, you are the one for me

And I know someday, we could find our way

I hope it's not too late

Please stay

Are you gone, gone?

Are you gone, gone?

It's been so long

It's been so long

Are you gone, gone, gone?

Tell me I'm wrong, wrong, wrong

It's been so long, long, long

Are you gone, gone, gone?

You're gone

You're gone

You're gone

You're gone

You're gone

Gone

You're gone

You're gone

You're gone

You're gone

You're gone

Gone

You're gone

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http://www.kinagrannis.com/

I Choose Happiness

Another happy song from David Choi.

Trivia: This song was used in the early episodes of Wong Fu Weekends and in some of KevJumba's videos. :)

Reality Check: Part 1 "The Awakening"

Action taken: 
Not responding to text messages, not sending emails. Basically, NO ACTION TAKEN. :)


Result:
More focus on work -- and blogging (sorry boss). A peaceful day.




Cutting off the communication. This was the hardest thing to do in the past. But for some reason, starting yesterday, it felt normal --- didn't need any effort at all. 


Listening to music helped. I've been listening to David Choi's "By My Side" since yesterday.. and I feel so high just listening to it (it's actually playing right now - repeatedly). I would want to sing this one day -- not just sing, but feel (Cheesey?! I know!).. But while listening to it, I guess I realized that I've never been as "crazy" as the song describes... 


Sometimes when I listen to songs (lately, most of the time), I would imagine myself in the situation of the singer (not making music videos, idiot!), feeling/experiencing each and every line.. This is why I love OSTs. Sad to say, I can relate to almost all loser songs you could think of (i.e. "why can't you see, you belong with me"; "should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements"; "so much for my happy ending"; "i'm starting to see, maybe we're not meant to be"; "someday we'll know, why i wasn't meant for you"; "pangarap lang kita -francis vincent montaner version-").  


But in this particular song, it's blank. I can't see anything - MALAMANG!. 


I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.

http://wongfuproductions.com/2011/07/6728/


I guess it's a good thing I can't imagine him with me in this song. Because somehow, it awakened me. 


Dear ME, you're pathetic. Until when do you plan to be like that?


ME: I know I have been stupid for a long time now. Wasting time, chances and ...tears (omg, this entry is getting more and more cheesey, if I keep going I'm gonna throw up any minute), and I want to stop right now (thank you very much -- spice girls). I won't cling to the past anymore, cause there's just nothing in it. There's also nothing in the present nor future for me and that guy. So I'll just stop -- I want to happy, like REAL happy (I suddenly imagined the PEPSI Pinas clown scene after typing this, lol).


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So this is how it all started. I tried different sorts of "operation move on" a long time ago but obviously, I failed in all of them. But this time it felt different. I feel like I can do it, FOR REAL. I want to. I'm going to. And then I'm going to be happy. Completely happy. :)


***** I have a feeling that I'm gonna get sick reading this days from now. But I really feel good right now, I have to write it down. :D